New years day clayton and I actuly spent the whole day together. it was so nice. its been like 7 months since I've been able to spend quality time like that with my baby. he has been very sweet, and understanding during this time. even thou hes getting unsettled, and we have hit a few rocky spots, him going out with out me gets him in trouble. when he met me I was always going out dancing and clubbing. full of live and living it, but with the two jobs I don't have the want or energy. that is the guy clayton started dateing and wanted to date.
i've been decreacing my time at my secound job and I have had a little more energy but don't go out due to times. my scheduel can be 8am to midnight on some days. so the saying all work and no play makes you and dull person is true. which I don't think I'm the person he wants to date because of that. plus he is 21, I knwo that was all I would want to do and move to a new city for is going out.
I should be ok living off one job and I know I would be happier. I would also have more time to take photos and do what makes me, and him, happy again. hopefuly that well get rid of the complacent felling I get from him, sometimes.
so end of month should be my last day to work two jobs. now I need to talk to him about this and see how he feels abotu it too.
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